The Private Apparition of Our Lady Of Prince Edward Island (P.E.I.)

Friday, October 12, 2012

My Thirty-day Retreat – Part IV

Dear Friends,
I am now sending you the fourth part of My Thirty-day Retreat. By the way I wish to thank all those who sent me donations. It is a great help indeed. May the Lord bless you.
Father Melvin

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          27th April 1990 – Today is the 10th day of the retreat and the first day of rest since we began. We are free to do as we please, and we can talk again, read the papers and go for a walk. Most of us try to catch up with what is going on in the world. There were two attempted coups in Africa during this period–one in Nigeria and the other in the Sudan. Jerusalem is also in the news with the Jews occupying a building of the Orthodox Patriarchate near the Holy Sepulchre. Today all the churches of Jerusalem are closed from 9:00 a.m. onwards, and all the church bells are tolling the whole morning. I went to the Holy Sepulchre to see this building the Jews are occupying. We went, three of us, and saw about a dozen soldiers with guns standing outside this building, and we could see the Jews inside. The Jews had their little Kaffia (skull caps) on. There were some cameramen moving around the crowd taking pictures.
Back at St. Anne’s it was quiet. Today the schedule was to have one period of meditation only. So, I prayed from 17:30 to 18:30 hrs. I took as matter for my prayer: Jesus in prison. He was put there after His scourging and crowning with thorns. It was there that the soldiers mocked Him. I was with Jesus in His sufferings for 40 minutes. I experienced the terrible anguish and disgust provoked by the soldiers and the pain in my heart which Jesus felt as they mocked Him, and yet He forgave them in His Heart. At the end I prayed for all peoples unjustly condemned or tortured or beaten. I also prayed for those whose human rights are not respected. Among these unjustly treated I prayed especially for those in prison because of their belief in Jesus. I prayed that hatred may cease in the world and that love may reign everywhere. At the end of the hour Jesus spoke to me saying, “I love you; you are my favorite brother. I am pleased with you. You will continue in my Passion for some days yet, till my Death on the Cross. See how my Baptism is linked to my Passion and Death, and to the Beatitudes too. Remember I wept over Jerusalem. You are worried about the future, if there is sickness in store for you. No, you will have a special work of mine to do. Be ready to receive the Holy Spirit.”

28th April 1990: The Second week of the Retreat – Today I had the full four periods of meditation. The first hour was on the crowning with thorns; the second and the third were on the Way of the Cross and the last was on the Crucifixion. In all these periods I shared in the Passion of Jesus, reliving in my heart and body some of the sufferings endured by Our Lord. It was only in the last period that Jesus spoke to me, “It is for you, out of love for you that I freely submitted to the Passion and Death on the Cross. Yes, it is for you and the whole of humanity. If you had been the only person on earth I would still have agreed to die for you on the Cross to save you. Now I return to our union: the special mystical union we have. It is because of this union that I have given you a share in my Passion. Now I grant you the Holy Spirit to strengthen you, and at the same time He is giving you the gift of healing the sick. If you do what I told you, the sick will be healed. Refer everything to me. You do not have to be anxious about what people will say. If any doubt, or ask for faith, lay your hands on them and the Holy Spirit will fill them, and they will receive the gift of faith. Your blessing too will be efficacious.” I ask Jesus to help me be sure that it is He who is speaking to me and not somebody else. He said, “I only speak to you in prayer when you are in a profound attitude of listening. When I speak to you, you will feel peace in your heart. Continue to share my Passion and I will speak to you again.”

29th April 1990 – I spent all the hours of prayer on the Crucifixion. I took in turn the four accounts in the Gospels. After reading the account, I would then be united to Jesus and experience the Crucifixion in my own body. It meant for me acute pain and suffering for I would feel the nails as they penetrated my arms and my feet and I would shout at times from the pain. I also felt fatigue and pain in all parts of my body. I had great pain in my diaphragm and I had difficulty breathing. Certain texts would become very vivid in my mind and these are: “If I am lifted up…I will attract all men to myself.” The words of Simeon to Mary: “A sword will pierce your heart.” The prayer from the Cross: “Forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.” To the thieves: “Today you will be with me in Paradise.” At the end Our Lady told me: “Jesus loves you very much. He suffered much for you. Remain united to Him always.” I offered Jesus’ Passion for the redemption of the world especially the Jews, the Moslems, the Chinese, the Indians and the people of Russia. Jesus wants all people to be saved.

Thursday, October 11, 2012

My Thirty-day Retreat – Part 3

Dear Friends,
I continue to send you what I wrote about my thirty-day retreat. It will now be more spiritual and I continue the Passion of Our Lord. May the Lord give you all the graces you need.
Father Melvin

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          24th April 1990 – In my meditations today I was with Jesus in His Agony suffering in my heart and soul what Jesus suffered. Jesus is reliving His Passion in me. It is a special grace, a special favour He gives me. At the end of the first hour I prayed for the conversion of the whole world that all peoples may acknowledge Jesus as their Saviour. In the second hour of the Agony towards the end Jesus asked me: “Will you serve?” I offered myself completely to Him to do whatever He wishes. The third hour was on Jesus’ arrest as narrated in Matthew’s Gospel. For 45 minutes I underwent the suffering caused by the betrayal of Judas, the desertion of the Apostles and His arrest as a criminal. I felt Jesus’ anguish, sadness and fatigue. Jesus now is set to die for my sins and the sins of the whole world. He is the Saviour of all. I thanked Him for dying for my sins. At the end Jesus said, “I love you.”
During the night I had the fourth meditation based on Jesus’ arrest according to Mark. The betrayal of Judas was the main cause of pain. In this pain were also the sins of all bishops and priests who have betrayed Jesus by abandoning the priesthood or the Order of Bishop. He let me share His pain for 50 minutes and then He spoke to me: “Melvin, I love you, you are my joy, my delight. I am happy to share my Passion with you for it brings us closer together. Together we can suffer for the conversion of the world, for the salvation of all peoples. How I desire the salvation of all in the world! Pray for priests; continue to pray for them that they esteem their priesthood, my priesthood, which I have given them. May they see the great honour I gave them. They are very dear to me; pray that they love their priesthood, and protect it through daily prayer and exercise it prudently. Indeed those who have abandoned the priesthood have added to my Passion. Remember, I love you; you are my joy.”

25th April 1990 – Today I spent the first two hours in prayer undergoing the Passion of Jesus. I took as text: “The Arrest”, according to Luke and John. At the end of the first hour, I prayed for the Holy Spirit to be released throughout the world to bring faith, peace, love and hope to a despairing people. I also prayed for the spread of the small Christian communities, and lastly I prayed for the Moslems. At the close of the second meditation I prayed especially for the priests who have compromised with the spirit of the world. In the third meditation I took as text: John chapter 17, the Priestly Prayer of Jesus. I was absorbed in Jesus for the full hour and then He spoke to me:
“Many priests are good, dedicated to me and are my great friends, but a substantial number have become cold, not devoted to me anymore. They don’t pray, they are worldly, and have no great love for the people. They are not interested in the Church. They are not obedient and they are indulgent. Pray for them; suffer for them. Pray also for vocations to the priesthood, so that the young may be generous in responding to my call. Pray that they may be trained in the proper way: in true doctrine; in real prayer; and in proper understanding of the Scriptures. They are to love the Church and her leaders especially the Pope, the Bishops and the religious their superiors. They are to be obedient to their superiors. They have to deny themselves and accept to be guided. I wish that all priests would fast every Friday by not taking the evening meal. They should do this in remembrance of my Passion and Death. Priests should wear in public a sign of their dedication, to counteract the spirit of the world which denies me. If they do not wear a symbol then they are continuing to contribute to this denial of their Saviour as if I never existed.”
After talking about the priests, Jesus then spoke to me in a personal way saying, “I love you. Will you give yourself completely to me?” I offered myself totally to Him. He then continued, “I will soon give you a strengthening through the Holy Spirit who will come upon you to give you the gift of healing. You will use this gift in this way: Have the sick person believe in God and in me as his/her Saviour; ask the person to repent of all sins and make him/her promise to pray every day.”
In the last meditation at night as I shared in Jesus’ Passion, I was united with Him in mind, heart and soul. At the end of one hour He asked me three times: “Melvin, do you love me?” Each time I said that I loved Him with all my heart. After the third time He said, “Now, you will receive the Holy Spirit.”

26th April 1990 – I had the usual four periods of meditation today, all of them on the Passion of Jesus especially the scourging and the crowning with thorns. I suffered greatly together with Jesus. I felt great pain from the whips and the thorns; at times I was filled with sorrow, and at other times I was very tired. Through it all I prayed in my tears, offering Jesus my love. At the end of the second period of prayer I offered myself to Him as a victim that He may do with me as He wishes. Over a period of 15 minutes I made an offering of myself. I offer all that I am to Jesus. Today Jesus was silent although I was very close to Him as He suffered His Passion.

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Dear Friends,
Here now is part 2 of my thirty-day retreat. You will see that my spiritual director had a change and allows me to live the Passion of Our Lord. Anyway, continue to read.
Father Melvin

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My Thirty-day Retreat – Part 2

          21^st April 1990 – The retreat continues. I saw my spiritual director with the result that I feel he is afraid of what is going on in my prayer – the Spirit seems to be leading me to the Passion of Christ, which should come only in the 3^rd week. He told me to forget about the Passion for now and to concentrate on the meditations for the first week. He was very insistent on following the right procedure and I was not to decide on my own what I was to meditate on. My director causes me great anxiety as I feel he does not understand what is going on in my prayer and I might be the cause of that, as I don’t explain sufficiently. Yet I am sure the Lord will guide him and show him what is the proper way to proceed. I am praying for God’s guidance right now. This evening I plan to go to the Church of the Holy Sepulchre to pray there for a while, the very place where the sufferings He shares with me these days took place.

22^nd April 1990 – What a difference a day can make! Today I saw my spiritual director again and all my anxieties are gone! Fr. Luc has accepted that this retreat of mine will be concentrated on the Passion of Our Lord, so he has given me the green light to meditate only on Jesus’ sufferings. This afternoon I began with the Agony in the Garden of Gethsemane according to Matthew. During the second hour I meditated on the account in Luke. These two hours have been times of complete immersion with Jesus. I feel great peace in my heart. Last night at 20:10, I went alone through deserted streets to the Holy Sepulchre, and I arrived at 20:20 as they were ringing the bell to announce the closing of the doors in 15 minutes. I asked one person at the door if I could go in and he said I could enter for ten minutes. So, I quickly went to the place of the Crucifixion and kissed the floor where the Cross was planted in the ground. After a short prayer I went to the Holy Sepulchre and prayed there till closing time.

23^rd April 1990 – What a fruitful day with Jesus this was! Jesus wants me to keep a diary of this retreat and to write down all that He tells me in prayer. He says these experiences in prayer will be of great help later on.
Now let me go back to the beginning of the retreat and summarize what has been going on in prayer. Since the beginning I have been with Jesus as He suffers the Passion. On 19^th while undergoing the Agony with Jesus I heard these words: “I am dying on the Cross for YOU. Now you have to die to self.” On 20^th while experiencing the Agony with Jesus, He asked: “Do you love me more than these?” On 21^st while sharing the pain of the Cross with Jesus He said: “I love you.” In the evening of the same day while at prayer Jesus put me in His Heart as He was on the Cross so that I could taste and feel some of the sufferings of His Crucifixion. He said to me, “I forgive you all your sins from your youth till today.” I thanked Him with a heart full of gratitude.